This morning I went to the clinic for completing my last preliminary
test. I was nervous because I was afraid of the pain. I was expecting something
similar to sonogram. But it was more painful and tools intense, may be this is
how they do a pap smear, but I have not done one before so it was intense for
me. Doctor came in and he started examine with a big tool and the pain was
hell, I think later the doctor realized that I am still dilating, he asked me
if my dilator was as big as the tool, but as I have tried only 2 levels, mine
was way smaller than the tool, so he said he is going to get a tiny one, but
once he got it, I don’t know whether to laugh or cry because it was as big as
the other oneJ. He
used that to hold the vagina open so that he can do the exam, I think they
poured in some water and viewed with a camera which displayed on a monitor,
this time it was like a TV where we can see everything real. I dint see
anything as I was holding my pain, finally he was saying that there are some
polyps and he showed it on the monitor, it was like some tissue bulged in there
that’s it, then he removed everything, everything happened in just few minutes but
it was painful even after removing everything. I thought sonogram was nothing compared to
this. May be as this is the first time in my life I am doing all these, and so I
might be exaggerating little bit, as even sonogram was pain for me. Doc told us
that he can do a surgery to remove polyps and he asked us to schedule an appointment
for it this week, but we wanted to give a break and start everything after the
vacation as we already had some plans.
I dint know what to say, what to think and it was painful as
well, we just asked the doctor what the name he mentioned and he write it down
on a paper as “uterine polyps”. We came out and scheduled an appointment for
Jan 9th. The pain was there till noon and he also mentioned that
there would be slight bleeding and I had mild bleeding, but I dint keep any pad
as it was very mild. I am mentally broke down as well. I wasn't even sure if
the doctor is telling the truth or what, he just came in saw something and said
there are polyps and we need to do surgery. It’s hard for me to digest these
and I see more and more coming. I started reading about the polyps and it seems
like we have to remove it if we want to proceed. So I have to go for a surgery.
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